| a good friend once told me you are our memory |
[Jun. 11th, 2005|12:55 pm] |
all of that i will try to forget because it hurts too much to remember. it will hurt less. forgetting will. i start right away. going through all the times i saw him. the way he looked then. i will forget that. i want to forget his eyes. clean and green. the time i looked into thoes eyes on the nights we were together. i want to forget that. i promise myself to forget that. i think i will forget that first. just like that. there. forgetten already. i want to forget all the lies he said. the lies that make me forgive him. like that. i want to forget all of that. every last bit becuase it only makes me miss him more to remember. i think most of all i want to forget the time we kissed. or the times he said he loved me. i want to so bad. but i can't i want to. please let me forget that. please. i promise to remember everything eles if i can just forget that. pretend it never happened. because it hurts too much that i'll have to keep it with me for the rest of my life.
i cry when i hear him promise that we would be friends forever. |
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|08:43 am] |
| Big Five Test Results | Extroversion (61%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Friendliness (77%) high which suggests you are overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense too often of your own individual development (martyr complex).
Orderliness (77%) high which suggests you are overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun.
Emotional Stability (38%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Openmindedness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.
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[May. 18th, 2005|06:39 pm] |
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| i guess i like to see myself fall |
[May. 16th, 2005|06:23 pm] |
this one is for myself
(i am putting this in my myspace and livejournal cuz people don't like myspace and people don't like livejournal)
i made the wrong choice and i got what i deserved don't feel bad it's my choice and no one made me do it i don't even know why i did it i just when you don't know what is wrong, it is just easier then having to deal with it even though it hurt you and everyone around you to see my best friend cry that hurt me more then anything to see how bad i hurt *him* it hurt me even more i didn't want *him* to know i told i could come back outside and put on my happy face mask but i guess it wore thin because i was wearing it for too long it has been about a year that i have been doing and now it needs to stop i know i said that before but i broke that promise way too many times and now i am making a promise to myself and i will not break it, hopefully i am tired of hurting the people that mean the most to me and i can't believe that they, well most of them are still there for me, and they always have been, so i am just telling you if your my friend and something is wrong i am going to call you no matter what time it is and i need my friends at this time more then ever this is the real deal if i am going to stop i need to you and i know i will not be the easy to put up with but i know you will be there for me well this is day number one of a new life and tomorrow will be number two but i am not going to think about tomorrow i am taking my live one day at a time but next year one may 15th, 2006 i am going to have a party and you my friend will be there if you hear for me now i need you more then ever thanks
well maybe this is for me and my friends too ilu |
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| cory's drum key... |
[May. 4th, 2005|10:06 pm] |
-i have cory's drum key!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-i got some song on my ipod
-i got my laptop back after being broken for 32452039485742095704295902470948 million years
-i failed my spaish major test today
-i am making cupcakes |
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[Apr. 30th, 2005|12:49 pm] |
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